Yesterday I shared about the words that the missionary spoke that were a balm to cover up an old wound.  Well, that same day, one of Reed’s friends led worship for the day.  Yes, a sweet high school senior listened to God’s prompting to lead a congregation in praise and song.  During the offering that day, he sang a song that had me crying in my pew.  It seemed as if the words he sang were an affirmation to what I believe to be God’s will for my life.

As I sat there in the pew, I allowed the words to sink deep within. All of my own struggles (too many possessions, worrying about the wrong things, prideful in accomplishments, my failings and where I have failed others, and the fear of not leaving a Godly legacy for my kids) were right there – packaged in one song.  By the time we got to the fifth stanza, I was a puddle of tears. I literally would give up everything I own to know that my children’s hope (and future) lays securely at the foot of Heaven’s throne.

Songs do that to me.  I have shared that before, but sometimes I will hear a song and I will have to pull over on the side of the road and cry.  I have always loved to sing, grew up singing (church & school), and hope that my family will honor my wishes when I pass away of having an hour-long time just singing praises to God.

I do have a small confession to make.  The song resonated with my soul; so, despite all my normal sensibilities, I whipped out my smartphone during service and did a Google search.  My efforts discovered the song, “Everything I own” by Marshall native, Jason Gray.  (I have included the lyrics and a Youtube link below.) After services, I did thank our sweet boy for his role in my heart-stirring and confirmed that I had found the right song.

I am going to play this song often this year as a reminder (when I get off the path – which I know I will) that this is where I want to be.  I want to be in daily contact with the giver of wings so that all else will be according to His plans in my life. Who knows, this one might just be added to the playlist one day for my family to sing one day. Because by that time, I will standing before the very throne that this song reminds that I need to be before every day!

I would love to hear about what songs (of any genre) really speak to you and why! Hoping to be daily before God and praying I see you there too!

Everything that I own (Jason Gray)

What would I give to be pure in heart,
to be pure in flesh and bone
what would I give to be pure in heart
I’d give everything that I own

I’d rid my whole house of its demons of lust
and open the window to trust,
and out of that window all fear will have flown
I’d give everything that I own

What would I give for the words of God
to come tumbling from the throne
tell me what would I give for the words of God
I’d give everything that I own

I’d open my head and they’d roll right in,
When I opened my mouth they would roll out again,
and up root the weeds of the deeds that I have sown
I’d give everything that I own

What would I give
for my children’s strength on the day they stand alone
I mean, what would I give for their strength to stand firm
I’d give everything that I own

Cause I’ve wasted my life accomplishing things,
ignoring the giver of wings
so Lord teach them to fly to the foot of your throne
I’d give everything that I own

All I’ve accomplished, the titles I hold,
my passions, positions, possessions and gold.
To God they must look like a thimble of foam
and it’s everything that I own, dirty rags are all that I own.

So I stand before God with my stubble and hay
He just laughs , but says there is still a way
because Father forgive, are the words Jesus moaned
and He gave everything that he owned

So what would I give to be pure in heart
for the known, to be made unknown
what would I give to be born again